I went into a salon to try a new stylist. I decided to only show pictures of old hollywood actresses for hair inspiration. The siren who keeps calling me is Lauren Bacall, so I repeatedly told the stylist that I loved her.
We talked about old movies. We talked about being old souls. We talked so much, that I really thought she got me. She worked my hair in pin curls and I thought this was such a positive sign. Then I showed her my makeup inspiration:
Ruby lips! Flawless skin! Nice brows! Brown eye makeup! As I watched the makeup come together, I thought things were going fairly well. We tried a few shades of red lipstick on my hand and I chose a more brown than pink shade. However, when the pin curls came out and the stylist swept bangs over my forehead, I knew that we just missed the mark. I explained that I didn't like that and all of the pictures I brought showed hair swept up and away from the face. I pinched my hair showed her how I did it for my engagement pictures and how I want volume on top. I really tried. I went outside of my comfort zone. Then I went home and I held back tears as I took these pictures:
It's all very pretty. I've tried to see how they relate to my inspiration pictures. To me, I look a little on the goth side because of the lining on the bottom of the eye. I also look completely washed out with the flash (which is how most of my photographs will need to be taken). I have a head full of hair that holds curl and will go as high as you want it to go, but for whatever reason, I have the distinct inability to properly communicate that I want exactly what the picture shows. I sent the pictures around to Motherdrome, Ms. P, and the Palindromaids. I received similar feedback from them. So the search continues and the timeline gets shorter!
If you were me, would you settle for one of my previous looks or keep searching?